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Over the past 4 years I have found myself wondering at times what it would be like to love my own child. My brother & his wife gave birth to their first child in September of 2004. I never knew how much fun being an aunt could be, but more than that, I never knew I was capable of loving such a small person SO much. In September of 2008 they had their second little girl and although I wondered if I would always favor Emily, their firstborn, I realized quickly that those thoughts would never cross my mind again. To say that we have had fun watching these sweet girls grow is an understatement to say the least.
Just as I wondered if I could ever have such an attachment to Allison as I do to Emily, I often wondered what it would be like when we had children of our own. Luke would joke with me that there might not be enough love to go around.
Today I realized that could not be further from the truth. Luke and I found ourselves in a Labor & Delivery room at the hospital. Before I go any further, I should let you know that it was simply a precaution and that Miss Madelyn is doing great! I had a little mishap- passed out, fell on my stomach- and so the doctor decided that monitoring the baby for 4 hours would be a good way to make sure that everything was OK! As we sat in that room, listening to our little one's heart beat, I could not help but look over at the little baby bed. It blows my mind to think that in just 10 short weeks we will see our little girl lay on that bed. I could feel her tiny feet kicking my stomach and the reality that soon she will grace us with her presence made my heart so full! I love this little life that is growing inside of me so much! It amazes me that God gives us the ability to love in ways we never even imagined.
* Kathryn
most of my posts -for the next few months at least or PM (pre-Madelyn) as I like to call it-
will come to life in the wee hours of the am when my prego body refuses to sleep! I am clinging to the hope that due to my crazy sleep schedule during my second & third trimesters, I will be more than ready for the middle of the night feedings, crying @ 3 am, & sleepless nights in general! But who am I kidding??
Over the last few days I have been overwhelmed by the magnitude of this adventure we have embarked on. Luke & I have been "Luke & Kathryn" since the beginning of our senior year in high school. I have been blessed to spend the last 6 years hanging out with my best friend- serving together, laughing at each other & growing closer with each passing day. I would be lying if I said that there isn't a part of me that is sad to see this time in our lives come to somewhat of a close.
At the same exact time...my heart is overjoyed with this gift that God is entrusting to us. I cannot wait to be a family of 3, to share this life with one more, and to experience the joys of discovering what God has for us in the days, weeks, months and years to come!
I know that the time Luke & I have been blessed with together up to this point is something I will treasure for the rest of my life. I am anxious to make more memories together & I am so excited that they will include one more.
Madelyn Kate, I look forward to the day I hold you in my arms.
*Kathryn
If there is one thing that I should let you know as I start this journey of sorts, it is that I own roughly 20 journals. This being said, most of them contain about 15 entries tops (ok let's just be honest maybe 5 if I was really determined at the time). Once I get behind...it's history. The journal is done. A few months will go by and I will see another journal that I have to buy at Target and I reason with myself that it's "a new beginning"...the cuteness of the journal alone will spark something inside of me to be more motivated and less anal at the same time about how often my pen hits its pages. And so the cycle continues...
The funny thing is, I have always loved to write. So here it goes...my online attempt to journal our life as we journey from a couple to a family of 3.
We shall see how long this lasts...
*Kathryn
Just as I wondered if I could ever have such an attachment to Allison as I do to Emily, I often wondered what it would be like when we had children of our own. Luke would joke with me that there might not be enough love to go around.
